Hey there I'm home today with my little girls. My wife's doing laundry so I'm here watching them. So much has changed in my life since I last wrote. I'm usually down in the dumps these days. Changes at work. I'm alone now in my job so its really depressing. I try not to think about it but its hard not to. So my personal issues are getting worse. And my friend who I normally talk to is on vacation. And I'm not being honest about things anymore either. That's not cool. But life continues on. God I hope it changes soon. Maybe I gotta change jobs. Work in a new area. I like this one a lot but not doing it alone. God please help me. Its really hard to rejoicein the Lord when I'm so messed up.