Sometimes I feel completely paralyzed. Like words can't express the complexity of the moment. Worlds collide and I gulp down grief like I haven't had a drink in days. I push away loved ones and all the good in my life fades out of focus for the single solitary cup that is sorrow.
When I awaken from this madness as from sleep I am shaken by what I have lost. My sanity. Rationality. How far did I go?