My life is in a phase where I have to turn everything I do over to the Lord every moment. I really struggle with knowing that he loves me and that I have value apart from what I can accomplish. When I was young it was engrained into me that I had to be doing as much as I could all the time to make life worthwhile. Leisure was just not as important, in fact it was more often than not sinful. Those things were more often lived than spoken to me, but I adopted a lot of that into my world view and now I've got to work to really see reality for what it is. God uses whatever I give him, however I give it. He doesn't judge a man based on his eloquent speech, the ability to lead scores into conversion, deep thoughts and arguments on the divine. He just loves and gives and recieves whatever I offer in faith.